Your key planet Venus is in your 9th House of Big Ideas yet her square to diffusive Neptune makes it difficult to know exactly what you want. You may be overwhelmed by your dreams of an ideal vacation or your attraction to a new philosophy or religion. But when you get closer to your imagined future, it crumbles before your eyes. Don't accept defeat; create a more realistic set of goals and try again.
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel about it. Hopefully it doesn't come true.